last night

i've been having trouble sleeping recently, but it's largely been my fault. i stay up too late one night, take a nap the next day, can't sleep that night, etc... but last night i didn't take a nap, i went for a walk. and still couldn't sleep.

i was too wound up about things. ridiculous things. like, what i was going to cook for breakfast (fried egg and shaved parmesan on a whole wheat english muffin) and how excited i was that i had already made my lunch AND dinner for the next day. yes, i couldn't sleep because i was that excited about food. haha.

although, i know it wasn't all about food. a lot of it is general anxiety about my life right now. i'm still trying to give that anxiety to God every day, but i keep grabbing it back. in my last post i talked about how i hate the waiting game. that includes everything that's going on in my life right now regarding my job, grad school, and possibly moving back to the CO. i'm the kind of person who would rather pick up and move just to get it over with, rather than waiting for a job, acceptance to grad school, and my lease to end! but i'm not doing that this time around. i'm waiting on God.

so to all my friends who say i'm too restless and impulsive and nomadic...take that! i'm actually going to wait this one out. for now, at least.