"okay okay okay"

said like joe pesci in the lethal weapon movies (fave character!!)

anyway, i've been neglecting this blog for awhile now, not that i'm terribly sure anyone even reads it anymore. but the point being, i love writing and i need to be more disciplined about it!

so...my life recently...i finally took the GMAT and am fairly pleased with my results. and i've finally found the time to get a lot of reading and organizing and cleaning done. amazing what i can accomplish when i sleep enough at night and don't have a huge stressful test hanging over my head!

but things have been good. i've been learning a lot about what it means to rest in God and to trust His provisions. it is a lot of day-to-day living, which takes effort on my part. i'm a planner by nature and right now i'm learning obedience...which God is teaching me by leading me one step at a time.

the amazing thing though, is instead of feeling chaotic and out of control, i feel restful. there is a peace and freedom that comes with acknowledging that God is in control. and i mean REALLY in control. i don't have to worry about my friends' happiness or about my church getting out of a slump or if the nonprofits in new orleans are ever going to really band together. all of that is in God's hands. He has given me specific tasks in all of those areas, but i'm realizing those are really more about my obedience to Him than my ability to fix everything. He can fix it all without me, if He wanted to.

even just typing that and reminding myself puts a smile on my face. what a lovely place in life to find myself. i may not love my job, i might hate the heat and humidity of new orleans summer, i could probably benefit from a larger social circle...but to rest in the freedom...how beautiful.