one step at a time

trying to live one step at a time is so difficult in our plan-obsessed culture. especially when you are a planned-obsessed person. God keeps showing me the next step, but nothing beyond that.

as i told my church committee members last night, i am not the person to whom God is going to reveal some larger plan or a detailed timeline. that's just not where He has me right now. it's all about the day-to-day steps. one foot in front of the other.

this is becoming increasingly difficult as i am becoming more accustomed to the idea of moving back to the CO. like i said in an earlier post, i have entered the good-bye phase, but i'm trying to remain present. this means keeping up with my current tasks and not day-dreaming about the dog i'm going to adopt when i move home.

i am not entirely sure if i'll even be able to completely let go of my plans for the future. i think it is part of my nature, something that God created in me to use for His purpose. but occasionally i need to scale it back.

the funny thing is that i have plenty on my plate right now in terms of immediate tasks, but i still like to busy myself with the future. *sigh* as much as i hate the predictable, i am always anxious to get to a place of stability. are those mutually exclusive? perhaps that is an analysis for another day...